Comments on Becky's T-Blog: Flip

You thought it was just you who couldn't see the o...

2005-10-03T16:38:00.000+01:00

You thought it was just you who couldn't see the old lady, or just you who needed a couple of sherries to enjoy being en-femme? :-)

Hmm, and I just thought it was me! :)

2005-10-03T16:32:00.000+01:00

Hmm, and I just thought it was me! :)

Ah yes I'm well aware of the ability of alcohol to...

2005-10-03T13:22:00.000+01:00

Ah yes I'm well aware of the ability of alcohol to resolve the cognative dissonance (great phrase K, wish I'd used it when I'd written the post!) but wouldn't it be nice if we didn't need it? :-/

I get those WTHAID moments, too - took four hours ...

2005-10-03T13:04:00.000+01:00

I get those WTHAID moments, too - took four hours to get dressed, and then wham! What The Hell Am I DOING?? I guess it's the downside to the Tranny Crack. The medicine suggested by Miss K helps wonderfully.

For the life of me, I cannot see the old crone in ...

2005-10-03T11:34:00.000+01:00

For the life of me, I cannot see the old crone in that picture, and it's really annoying me!

SL is Kind of like life sometimes, seeing 80% perf...

2005-10-03T11:11:00.000+01:00

SL is Kind of like life sometimes, seeing 80% perfection.

How true.

Can see the young woman, but not the old man and ...

2005-10-03T08:47:00.000+01:00

Can see the young woman, but not the old man and I keep staring at the picture - oh well.

As for the richard/rachel thing I just see me either with or without wig/ladies clothes/make-up.

And as it happens, I don't dress up at home. For me it's the getting out and seeing my TG friends. Mind you, now that some of my "regular" friends have been out with Rachel I'd include them as well.

For me the "Flip" is based on the fact that when I've got a dress or ladies trousers, etc. on it seems incongruent to think of myself as Richard, but that's perhaps more to do with how others perceive/interact with me in "en-femme" mode (I hate that phrase, en-femme).

Another aspect is that I don't see myself as two separate people either.

I know I haven't reached an explanation that will provide any definitive answers, but it's taken about 45 years to get here, and I'm comfortable with it so what the heck...

Good to see others perspectives on this.

Same for me, a lot of the time Im in jeans and cas...

2005-10-03T07:30:00.000+01:00

Same for me, a lot of the time Im in jeans and casual tops lately though I still wear makeup a lot, some days I just wonder who I am and where Im going, then 'flip' something happens and I feel good about me again. Yes Emily i think a lot of thats depression, Im pretty down about a few things just now.
As for SL well getting broadband allowed me to get in there and see things reasonably well even though I freeze at times. I find it confusing and complicated but have a couple of friends in there so right now, at this minute, Im perservering with it. Dont think its worth forking out for a new graphics card though, being as everything else I do runs just fine. SL is Kind of like life sometimes, seeing 80% perfection.

I've been that way... I'll be there looking all wo...

2005-10-03T03:10:00.000+01:00

I've been that way... I'll be there looking all wonderful, perfect eyemakeup, perfect everything, perfect picture of gothgirl, look in the mirror and feel much more goth than girl. So I change into more (different) black, leave the eyemakeup but smear it. I hate that feeling. Usually happens (seems obvious now) when I'm depressed, but it's not always then. And there are other times that getting all dolled up helps me get out of the blues.

Using my 1928 monitor running on 2-star fuel and o...

2005-10-03T00:12:00.000+01:00

Using my 1928 monitor running on 2-star fuel and only capable of black and white graphics (when I'm lucky) I can safely say I don't have any second life experience.

However, the "Stephen in a frock" experience is very familiar.

BUT, even then, it's fun. The anticipation, the preparation, the whole "tranny-rush" is fun - even if the final result isn't what you want.

Last week it wasn't fun.

First time that has ever happened to me. Even before I looked in the mirror I was wondering why the hell I was doing this. Anybody else had a "non-fun tranny experience"?

Kinda Know what you mean about SL.. I feel the sam...

2005-10-02T22:19:00.000+01:00

Kinda Know what you mean about SL.. I feel the same... I "get" EQ2.. there are quests and definite things to get done and achieve.. I just kinda meandered through SL not really getting it...

Went in today for the first time in a week.. crashed after 5 mins and didn't go back.

Cognitive dissonance? I recommend a nice glass of ...

2005-10-02T22:05:00.000+01:00

Cognitive dissonance? I recommend a nice glass of Sauv. Blanc. Montana or Oyster Bay are good. Or Wither Hills if you're feeling flush